It’s so interesting how ideas end up coming to fruition.
So often I will have an idea for a blog post and the majority of content magically writes itself but when it comes to the punch line, I can’t put it into words as perfectly as it makes sense in my mind.
Then I will be listening to something, a podcast, an interview, or even just the sounds of the universe and just like magic, the missing puzzle pieces will come together to manifest the words to the content that I had in my mind.
I am the type of person that always has a
million thoughts going through my head.
And not just any ideas, ideas that are in alignment with my diving assignment. For that reason, I can’t let myself part with them. That is a big reason, I like to bask in silence a lot of the time.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve always preferred to have no music on while driving.
At the current phase of my life, I do a lot of driving and as you can imagine, living in LA means long commutes even just to the coffee shop down the street.
I’ve recently noticed that as soon as I turn on or get into a vehicle I subconsciously turn off the radio no matter how loud the volume is or what type of music, even non-lyrical. When I get into a vehicle with loud music playing, it severely interferes with my zen. It also interrupts my thoughts, and as a content creator and deep thinker, I can’t allow for that to happen.
Majority of the time I have so many ideas and thoughts going through my head that having background noise interrupts the flow and a possible breakthrough.
I’ve also noticed that often times I can get half way through an hour long drive before I realize that I haven’t had anything playing in the background the entire time. And to be honest, I love it that way. I don’t bother turning anything on once I’ve become aware.
When in a car with someone else, usually the first thing I hear is “What kind of music do you listen to?” and while there are a handful of songs that I listen to because they speak to my soul, contrary to my early teenage years I’m just not that into music; therefore my answer is “I like to listen to podcasts while driving”. Most people are pretty taken back when they hear that.
To be honest, I can’t even really come up with a favorite music artist or even song for that matter.
I even remember back to my college days when my best friend and I would be studying together and could never agree on whether or not to have something playing. She preferred to have light, relaxing songs while we worked, and I preferred no background noise and us just casually talking.
While most mornings, I look forward to listening to a broadening podcast to set the tone for the day and give me ideas, often times in the middle of the day or evenings, I want to hear nothing more than my own thoughts.
By nature, I always want to feel productive but when it’s time to zen out and just let my mind wander, I don’t want to hear anything.
It’s taken me a while to realize that this is my own preference and it’s perfectly ok.
In the world that we live in today, it’s very common to get caught in the comparison trap. With social media giving us so much access to the inside of other peoples lives, it’s only natural to look at your life side-by-side with someone else’s.
For so long I felt like I was “weird” for not enjoying music the same way my peers did.
I can think back to college, when everyone around me had thousands of songs on their iPod, and I had under 100 and didn’t even know how to download songs without having to pay for them. In fact, I still don’t.
I even remember days when I would spend my free time researching bands and artists that I had heard of just to find new music that wasn’t my preference to add more songs to my playlist.
But in retrospect, why? Not being interested in something is entirely normal. Just because the masses are into something doesn’t mean I have to be or you have to be.
So much of my young-life, I was judged by those closest to me for my personality.
I would here things like…
“When we were at that birthday party, you didn’t even want to dance”
“Why do you want to be home by 10? You’re such an old lady”
And because of that I felt like something was off about me simply because of my preference. But the fact is, I didn’t choose this; it’s a part of my biology.
Just because so many other people enjoy music I’m supposed to as well?
It took me time to accept this about myself. It wasn’t until I realized that no matter how hard I tried to love music, it just wasn’t me.
Then I looked a little deeper and when I realized that my thoughts, ideas, and content were more important than music (and so was my self development) podcasts, audio books; I realized that I wouldn’t have it any other way. Regardless of what anyone else thought.
That being said, I invite you to examine your life, your world, your existence. Is there part of your life that is only there because you feel like it’s “supposed to be”?
Is there anything that is taking up space that if you let go of it, you would be able to hold space for something else?
In my case, it’s inspiration and content creation. I’d so much rather have that than music. Therefore, I no longer judge or try to change myself for what I naturally gravitate towards and there’s no reason for you to either.
In life, there is truly nothing that you are “supposed” to do other than be a decent member of society and follow your calling. If you are in alignment with your divine assignment, you are light years ahead of most of the world and I celebrate you.